I mused over whether or not I should be an RA for quite some time. Those of you who know me well will know that I don't enter into commitments willy nilly, and this was no exception. I spent many weeks in prayer over this decision last year. In all honesty, I didn't want the position, but felt that God was putting it on my heart to prayerfully consider. I interviewed for the job and told the Lord that if I was accepted that I would carry it out to the fullest of my capabilities, and if not, then someone else was better suited for the job and that was OK too.
Even after I had been interviewed and informed that I had been accepted for the position, I had second guesses. All throughout the summer I was praying for the girls that I didn't even know yet who would be living on my hall, for my boss and co-workers, for wisdom, grace and guidance for myself, and for our GC community.
I did a bit of fretting over the idea of this job, especially toward the end of the summer as the school year approached. Among my thoughts were (some are maybe too honest for a blog): Am I really cut out for this job? Do I have what it takes to fulfill this role? I am an introvert and am worried that I will get burnt out. I am almost 24, do I really want to live with freshmen? Will I be able still stay connected to my friends from last year? Will I be able to devote the proper amount of time toward my studies and my girls? Will the girls on my hall like me and will we be able to relate to one another?
I am pleased to say that at the 1/3 mark in the year I am so glad that I made this decision! I have a genuine love for all the girls on my hall. I am privileged to share this space with them and contribute to their lives in one capacity or another. I feel so in my element. God really knows what he is doing, and has calmed all of those fears and insecurities I had coming into this job.
There are many other great things that I could share, but perhaps in another post. I leave you with the admonition to trust the leanings that you get from the Lord and believe in the strengths you have been given. God loves to use his willing servants to make himself known.
Yoder Hall Staff 2011-12